Lot in Life

I've decided that having a blog can be hard sometimes. Don't get me wrong I love keeping the family updated but I've decided it hard to have a blog that truly reflects the crawford family through an update as sometimes the update isn't always a fun thing. I've decided that every blog will start with .... "I'm sorry it's taken me so long to update" because of this reason or that. I've realize that there never is enough time to get everything done. But I've also realized that it's all about priorities. Taking the time each day to do the things that mean the most to you and never looking back with regret on what we wish we would have done differently in our lives.

The past month has been one that I'll never forget. After spending 2 full weeks in Florida with us my mom went back to Indiana and passed away exactly two weeks later. During my time in Indiana both before and after mom's passing I realized how great my family is. You see when I was home in Jan after my mom's brain surgery there was one night when she was tired of taking her pills she looked at me and asked when it was all going to end. She didn't feel like there was any end in sight with all of the drugs, surgery, and endless trips to the Dr. There wasn't any good answer to that question. But then she said to me with all sincerity that "If this is the lot in life that has been dealt to me I can't complain at all." She was happy with her family, proud of her kids, and admist a deadly disease felt she had been given a "good life". I find peace in knowing that she felt that way and hopeful that I can live my life in a way to make me feel as at peace with my "lot in life."

No one gets to know when our end is. A reality that was brought to life when another family member was also swept away just a couple weeks after my mom. He was at an age when dreams are just becoming a reality. When you think you have your whole life in front of you. There was no advance notice, no time to tell him what a great guy he was, or how much we loved him.

To all of those that have passed we remember you! Your life lives on in the grandchildren and children that you left behind. We know you are in a better place and although we miss you dearly we know someday we will meet again.

When Tomorrow Starts Without Me,
And I'm not there to see
If the sun should rise and find your eyes,
all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today,
While thinking of the many things
We didn't get to say.
But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand.
He said my place was ready In heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind All those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye
For all my life I'd always thought, I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for, So much left yet to do,
It seemed impossible That I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared
And all the fun we had.
So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me
I'm right here, in your heart.